When I saw rickross.com was no longer available, it broke my heart. And then I found this site. (Rick, thanks for keeping the fire burning.)
Almost 30 years have passed since I last sat in my office at Land o'Lakes Christian School doing PACE work. "I need to see you in my office." Every time the principal came up behind me and sternly uttered those words, Nothing else mattered. Nothing in life to look forward to. I felt like the world might as well have been coming to an end. I knew I was gonna get a paddling. And for about 20 mins while he had me standing in his office while he pointed out why I was wrong and why I would be getting a paddling. The emotional abuse was worse than the physical paddling. YEAR SIX (1982 - 1983) They brought in this one dude who had me paddled at least 8 times within about 6 weeks. I stopped counting after 8. Once I had two paddlings in two days. Back to back. And they shamed me every paddling. Two adults against a kid.
Since moving to NJ I got burned by other churches. When I was going through my divorce the pastor of the last Baptist church I was attending un-friended me on facebook. That's a modern day slap in the face.
Still today, when my supervisor tells me, "Can I talk to you for a few minutes?" I still get this feeling of impending doom. Like I'm gonna get fired or something like that.
Religiously, I am floundering around like a sheep without a shepherd. But then I came to the conclusion that all protestant churches are wrong. Because they split away from the Catholic Church. Nowhere in the Holy Bible (KJV, Bee-otch!) does it say it's ok to split up the Bride of Christ. In the Garden of Gethsenamie, Christ prays that his church to remain as one.
It makes no sense what I'm doing here. Because everybody blasts the Catholic Church. Up until about 1000 the Catholic Church was the only church. The Orthodox Church split, mostly for geographical reasons. And then in 1500 Martin Luther caused a split. Today there's about 40,000 non-Catholic sects in existence. And each one claims to hold the truth.
So where am I gonna go? To Catholic Church?
Maybe this belongs in a different forum.
Almost 30 years have passed since I last sat in my office at Land o'Lakes Christian School doing PACE work. "I need to see you in my office." Every time the principal came up behind me and sternly uttered those words, Nothing else mattered. Nothing in life to look forward to. I felt like the world might as well have been coming to an end. I knew I was gonna get a paddling. And for about 20 mins while he had me standing in his office while he pointed out why I was wrong and why I would be getting a paddling. The emotional abuse was worse than the physical paddling. YEAR SIX (1982 - 1983) They brought in this one dude who had me paddled at least 8 times within about 6 weeks. I stopped counting after 8. Once I had two paddlings in two days. Back to back. And they shamed me every paddling. Two adults against a kid.
Since moving to NJ I got burned by other churches. When I was going through my divorce the pastor of the last Baptist church I was attending un-friended me on facebook. That's a modern day slap in the face.
Still today, when my supervisor tells me, "Can I talk to you for a few minutes?" I still get this feeling of impending doom. Like I'm gonna get fired or something like that.
Religiously, I am floundering around like a sheep without a shepherd. But then I came to the conclusion that all protestant churches are wrong. Because they split away from the Catholic Church. Nowhere in the Holy Bible (KJV, Bee-otch!) does it say it's ok to split up the Bride of Christ. In the Garden of Gethsenamie, Christ prays that his church to remain as one.
It makes no sense what I'm doing here. Because everybody blasts the Catholic Church. Up until about 1000 the Catholic Church was the only church. The Orthodox Church split, mostly for geographical reasons. And then in 1500 Martin Luther caused a split. Today there's about 40,000 non-Catholic sects in existence. And each one claims to hold the truth.
So where am I gonna go? To Catholic Church?
Maybe this belongs in a different forum.