NickleandDimed Wrote:
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> I relate to your posts light777 and puddington. My
> mom was in the church for a short while. Dad made
> her leave. Never got to thank him for that.
>
>
> puddington Wrote:
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> >
> > You mention PTSD. I am interested in what the
> > symptoms are for post-LW PTSD. Maybe we should
> > list them.
> >
> > For me, it is a fear and reaction to being
> > directed by anyone.
> >
> > Another is a loss of confidence in making my
> own
> > decisions.
> >
> > And a general feeling that I have fallen out of
> > the graces of God. And am headed for hell. (Don't try on the gasoline soaked underwear.) lol
>
>
> For me one is, shunning/isolation. How Cruel! One
> boss had me work at a location away from the
> co-workers. Office space shortage. Started
> reliving old painful memories. Then, co-worker
> said I was lucky. No boss breathing down my neck.
> There was autonomy which I slowly eased into.
Years before JRS and M married, through M, I ask JRS for help on a personal matter. As it turned out, he used the personal information I provided him to cross me. I saw that he was doing the same to some of the ministries, but I later felt that I was one of the first little people cross you out guinea pigs. Of course we all know he taught G&M to do the same. Because what seemed to me was a violation of trust by the bhagwan, I struggle with ministry trust issues. And some times I beat myself up for having been so stupid to have shared any personal information with that man. And if I hadn't shared that personal information with him, my life would have been different. It's been big PTSD just push those thoughts out of your mind thing.
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> I relate to your posts light777 and puddington. My
> mom was in the church for a short while. Dad made
> her leave. Never got to thank him for that.
>
>
> puddington Wrote:
> --------------------------------------------------
> -----
> >
> >
> > You mention PTSD. I am interested in what the
> > symptoms are for post-LW PTSD. Maybe we should
> > list them.
> >
> > For me, it is a fear and reaction to being
> > directed by anyone.
> >
> > Another is a loss of confidence in making my
> own
> > decisions.
> >
> > And a general feeling that I have fallen out of
> > the graces of God. And am headed for hell. (Don't try on the gasoline soaked underwear.) lol
>
>
> For me one is, shunning/isolation. How Cruel! One
> boss had me work at a location away from the
> co-workers. Office space shortage. Started
> reliving old painful memories. Then, co-worker
> said I was lucky. No boss breathing down my neck.
> There was autonomy which I slowly eased into.
Years before JRS and M married, through M, I ask JRS for help on a personal matter. As it turned out, he used the personal information I provided him to cross me. I saw that he was doing the same to some of the ministries, but I later felt that I was one of the first little people cross you out guinea pigs. Of course we all know he taught G&M to do the same. Because what seemed to me was a violation of trust by the bhagwan, I struggle with ministry trust issues. And some times I beat myself up for having been so stupid to have shared any personal information with that man. And if I hadn't shared that personal information with him, my life would have been different. It's been big PTSD just push those thoughts out of your mind thing.